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I'm OK

Today I went to see Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince (again :p).

After that, I went to see my therapist / psychiatrist. I might need a med change. It was a really good session. We talked about a lot of meaningful stuff..we talked about my diagnosis. I feel good about it. My diagnosis. I don't feel ashamed anymore. Well, I still won't tell just anyone. But for myself, I feel ok with it.

I am listening to "Color Blind" by Natalie Walker right now. I think it was originally done by the Counting Crows, but I like this version better. It's beautiful.

Luke: I can't believe it.
Yoda: That is why you fail.
http://www.positivityblog.com/

ode to Anne Taintor

home sweet...um

I just got back from vacation. I was in the Adirondacks with my family. It was great. It was really really great. There was no computer and no neighbors. It was fantastic. Seriously. I had a lot of time to myself and in a different way than normal. It made me realize a lot of things. Things that made me happy and things that just helped me understand. It's weird though because things felt so tangible when I was up there. My goals. My dreams. Etc. But since being home, I'm feeling a little hopeless again.

Now that I'm back, I want to move out of my parents house. With a passion. I can't stand being in the same house I was born in and grew up in and was negaitvely warped in. I can't stand living next door to x either. I think "can't stand" is too big a statement. I can stand it. I just want to get out.

My dreams/goals:

1. go back to academia

2. get a job I enjoy

3. move out of my parents' house

Can't sleep

random quote from mscl:
"I'm in love. His name is Jordan Catalano. He was left back, twice. Once I almost touched his shoulder in the middle of a pop quiz. He's always closing his eyes, like it hurts to look at things."

OK, so I'm wide awake even though normally at this time of night I would be asleep.

I had an epiphany. That is all I am going to say about that. Except that I think that's partly why I can't sleep. I feel different.

I got my hair cut and it looks like shit. I mean, it looks ok, I don't know. I am never really satisfied with my hair.

I miss Spain. I want to go back. I didn't appreciate it when I was there. I'm glad I have my memories though. They're all good ones.

I've been exercising more and it's nice. I'm really glad I'm taking a dance class. I think I might take one in the fall too.

I am looking for a job. Sometimes, ok, a lot of times, I get sidetracked, or lazy, or both. And it doesn't help that most people in my life don't care if I stayed unemployed for now. I am getting services from a social outreach group, and for the past month I have really been sidetracked by that. Anyway, sidetracked no more!

I miss Marian. I really work well when I am working with someone else to get things done. I don't know if that is ultimately beneficial but it was really helpful to me at the time. So I miss being in school and going to her to talk about things.