This circus is falling down on its knees
The big top is crumbling down
Its raining in baltimore fifty miles east
Where you should be, no ones around

I need a phone call
I need a raincoat
I need a big love
I need a phone call

These train conversations are passing me by
And I dont have nothing to say
You get what you pay for
But I just had no intention of living this way

I need a phone call
I need a plane ride
I need a sunburn
I need a raincoat

And I get no answers
And I dont get no change
Its raining in baltimore, baby
But everything else is the same

Theres things I remember and things I forget
I miss you I guess that I should
Three thousand five hundred miles away
But what would you change if you could?

I need a phone call
Maybe I should buy a new car
I can always hear a freight train if I listen real hard
And I wish it was a small world
Because Im lonely for the big towns
Id like to hear a little guitar
I think its time to put the top down

I need a phone call
I need a raincoat

--Raining in Baltimore by the Counting Crows

Hi. Well, it's been a while since I've updated this thing, so here goes...

Lately, I've been really tired and lethargic, and all I've wanted to do is lie in bed. I don't feel sadness. But I do feel apathy. I'm going to the doctor's next week so I will mention it then.
I've also been irritable.

I'm getting really worried because I don't have a job and I thought I would by now. I feel really like just..."who cares" and that concerns me too. The volunteer thing fell through, and that is upsetting to me, because I really was looking forward to it and thought it would work out. I feel like I'm falling and there's nothing underneath me sometimes. It's strange when things don't work out. I feel like, what do I do now? I guess find another place to volunteer. I'm just so tired and feel defeated right now. But it looks like I will either do that, or apply for jobs, or both.

The good thing is that I see my doctor next week so we can talk about it. I dropped in on a figure drawing class last week and next week I start my art class. I hope it goes ok... I'm looking into working with animals..